Nice dinner with the family for my moms bday… Until the cheft pointed out i was the only one without anyone. Mom brought her bf. My brother brought his gf. And by surprise my mom invited my little brothers gf…
Normally situations like this dont bug me but it didn’t help that the cheft said something about it then the whole table got involved… Little brother being a dick. My mom giving me suggestions alOng with her bf. And my older brother and his gf kinda just sat there and look at me with pity in the eyes…
After all that was said and done kinda just went into my dark place and kept quite the rest of the next while i ordered a cafte of sake for myself to numb my feelings.
After all the food was awesome and everyone carried on with their stuff and called it a night. Now as i sit drive home alone. Coming home to no one and no one to talk to be side me. Its nights like this that make being me hard…
And ppl wonder why Im the way i am… FTW and Fuck this Shit about feeling sad for myself.
Im off to the gym to take out my emotions and feelings out on the weights and push my body so i don’t feel anything.
I just want to me dumb again…
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